Entry 2: Chinglish

I can't believe I got point off on mine homework!!!! It was like why the world do this huh?! First I'm sooo ashamed with the way my mom force me dress chinese-like and now I failed my xiao kao?! I can see that all of my other classmates are still having fun while I just felt gloomy and finding ways to boost up my score! How am I going to face my baba and mama with that homework grade...I felt like I'm the only person who has to bear both pressure from parents and friends. My classmates don't seem to be willing to hang out with me with my stupid Chinese accent. I have to keep telling them "I know English good!" Whenever test scores come out, my 'friends' would stay away from me because they wouldn't understand why I was feeling sad. Urg....I never really know their scores, but I guess they may get some score higher than me (100% I think since I always get something around 98%-99%). I felt like I'm one of the victims who has to stand pressure from both parents and friends. Parents have so many and much expectations for me, and so friends too ah... When I'm stuck within the 'American pressure' and the 'Chinese pressure', nobody seems to get how I feel, not even my parents. I felt there's a mixture of the two cultures inside my mind. The main problem with this mixture is I don't feel close to any side. I wanted to have the Chinese sole inside my mind with the American outfit, but it seems to be really so hard oh....